whereisthelove1242

Why doesn't she see, Doesn't she see that the scars have returned. Except the difference from before, these scars aren't faint like before. These are new. The ones that are freshly made. I feel the blade pierce my skin. I missed the Feeling. Yet I feel shame like never before. You know what. Fuck it!!! I'll just have the blade pierce once more, and wait for the feeling of numb to return.

Why do I always over think? Why can't I sit here for once and just have fun! Why does my dad have to act like I HAVE to love him. Why do I feel like everyone is changing for the better and I'm here watching it happen. It feels like a train, the ground quakes when you are near, and then there is me who's sitting to the side and watching everyone go on. The wind clashes with my soul, It feels like I'm stuck to the ground. Like I can't even take a step. Even they ones I suffer along with are happy, and I'm here, like always. Like last year and the year before; like I will be 10 years from now. Stuck here.

Usually people do not tend to realize the fact that everyone has an overwhelming amount of strength.  For example people claim to be horribly self- conscious, but why when you have the strength the continue on, how many of us can say we've made in through years of misery mixed with hate and the temptation of evil, yet here we stand being good and keeping our thoughts to our self. Some people have suffered more then the rest.... No.. suffered isn't the right word....Survived. They've survived through much worse situations then the rest of us and yet the end up more scarred in all actuality they are actually the strongest of us all due to the f